...the point of no return...

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

A meaningful day

16/06 were in their full school uniform today, all neatly worn with the school tie and collar pin on. Heard from giddy that all were punctual for school as well.
Why am I blogging about this? Because I am really proud of them.

Now, I also feel extremely proud of the choir today, in particular the choir's student conductor. It was passion, dedication, power of friendship and peer support, most outstandingly resilience in display.

A simple post that has more meaning than many others.

Today, the kids earned my admiration.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Settled Unsettled

I reckon I have settled in quickly and comfortably. This profession is indeed very different from what I have envisaged it to be but what the heck, we are still doing good to people around us, in a way or another. As much as I would like to be spending more time doing what I think I should be doing in my current capacity, I reckon the bigger authorities or even the society see us as multitaskers rather than specialists.

I know I am more than capable of fulfiling the requirements of this job and although the learning curve was rather steep and the workload heavy, I know I will still be standing strong at the end of the day.

But the more rooted I think I have become, the more unsettled I feel. Dissonance builds up and sometimes frustrations. All that I can do now, is to channel them into useful energy(hopefully) and see through the terms.

As prisoned birds must find their freedom, I bide my time.



On another totally irrelevant point, I think I love the saturday choir.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

The thing about ranking, awards and competition in Singapore

This sparked off a lamenting session with an old friend from the chorale..

We were talking about the SYF choral competition that's just round the corner and were practically lamenting the need for the choir kids to go through all these, when the choir could be better off focusing on doing music for the sake of doing music. We believe the process of making music w/o the "motivations" of a competition and/or inevitably ranking, will be much more enjoyable and meaningful.

I have a reason for this which I believe, might not be Uniquely Singapore, but close. Real close.

See, meritocracy is one of the fundamentals of Singapore's ideologies and political thrusts as a nation. Frankly, there's nothing wrong with meritocracy. In fact I am a firm believer in the positives it creates. However, in this country I proudly call home, despite all her material riches and achievements, she has yet lose her tag of a "developing country" in the realm of the art, culture and appreciation. I reckon this apply especially so to choral music.

Thus, the need for structured assessment "exercises" like the SYF, or the more glamorous overseas competitions and what not. Because this is the only way Singaporeans, not just the authorities but really the general public could decide whether a choir is mediocre, good or excellent. Sadly, this could possibly be the only method of assessment most Singaporeans know of. Partly due to the lack of exposure to this artform, or the lack of interest in it, people are unable to decide for themselves likewise whether a particular choral performance was a good one or a bad one. They NEED to see the rankings, the number of awards won etc indicators of how well or badly a choir has performed at the SYF or at an overseas competitions to determine whether a public concert staged by a choir would be worth their time.

The following is kindda random but what the heck.

A banker gets rewarded with fat bonuses, pay checks and possibly a percentage of profits he/she earns for the company. That's all fair and square.

Now, let's look at a teacher who has played a crucial and deciding role in the development of a particular student, who went on to become a successful entrepreneur whose multi-million business contributes to the economy of Singapore. Now even if the student credits the teacher entirely for his/her present day achievements, the teacher will probably never stand to receive any monetary rewards from the authorities yea?

Impossible. Because the teacher's impact on the student is unmeasurable. Unless there is a SYF/competition equivalent for teachers, to judge and then to rank them. Maybe give them a gold, silver, bronze or certificate of participation according to "measurables" such as the number of A students they've produced.

How could we then, measure, judge or assess the art of music making?