...the point of no return...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

To Sing With You Your Song

I did not feel that impulse to blog as I would have in the past. Took me a while to put these thoughts together and finally decided to put them into words.
I did not feel the elation, ecstasy nor the rush of blood that I felt 2 years ago.
Maybe I was convinced to not expect much.

I felt relief.

I wouldn't know what to do honestly, should I fail this batch of singers.
Every batch deserves the best. I must only deliver the best for them.

Maybe the process could have been smoother. Maybe it should have gone according to what I've planned. Maybe it'd have been less stressful, exhausting and painful.

But this is life. Life is about change. And responding to changes. Nothing is constant.

To steer the ship along its course towards its next destination, you must respond to the changing condition of the seas. It could be peaceful and sunny sometimes, stormy and dangerous some other times. What does not change, is the ship and for its sake, we must never falter nor lose our way.


I'm looking forward to the next challenge and hopefully, we'd all be well rested and our internal compass, aligned towards our next common destination, our hearts as one.

Mano kaj man' kunpremitaj, trans la eterno sen lim'

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

16th April 2009

I pray for, it will be,
A day of sincerity and focus,
A performance of musicianship and artistry,
A result befitting of their effort,
An experience, memorable and impactful.

A day of no regrets.
I pray.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

What will be will be.

It's make it or break it time.
No regrets.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

will the real TT please stand up

I've been weak for the past week.
That's not me.

Whatever it is, I still want them to get the very best so I'm gonna continue fighting.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Exhausted

I felt defeated today.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

What you love most pains you most

There's so much more I can do. There's so much more I'm willing to do.
I don't mind risking a relapse. I don't mind being in pain.

Why make me feel that it's not worthwhile and meaningful anymore.

Has it all changed?
Can it not change?

I don't give up, I don't surrender.
Please. Don't make me.