Renaissance

Another year.

2011-12-31T01:09:00.001+08:00

I miss you badly ah ma.

The start of something new!

2010-01-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

It felt so much like the first practice with NgeeAnn Pri back then.
I must have aged haha

Glimpses into the Future?

2009-11-18T19:31:00.002+08:00

This week, today especially, I was presented with a peek into my next 2-3 years of my future.
And I like what I see. Rather, I like what I heard. And felt.

I was exhausted at PRSS but I could see the sparks.
I was happy with AHS and the fact that the virtuous cycle is gradually put in place. I am personally very pleased with the kind of songs they are capable of handling nowadays. The level of technical difficulty and necessary depth in musicianship is not completely developed yet but I can see it coming.

I felt really at home with NY. I felt quite a lot of joy today.

Life is getting better.

Cheers dattebayo!

The last time

2009-11-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

I was 100% in mind and body as I gave my last bit of contribution to the team as an official member of the "academy" to quote a friend who resides across the straits.

I guess it would never be the same again.

to this identity/capacity: au revoir

Farewell for the last time.

2009-10-16T22:45:00.001+08:00

I'd blog about this soon.

here goes:

now that i've decided to return next year as a relief t, the poignant feeling that usually accompanies a leaving of some sort didn't linger for long.

Honestly, I'm having mixed feelings right now. I shouldn't be right?

I don't think i'm in the right frame of mind to blog.

I guess I'm not done emo-ing.

till the next time.

Back up your hard disk.

2009-09-25T00:45:00.006+08:00

Finally, drive by desperation to free up some hard disk space on my mac, I found some time to go through the files I managed to salvage from the old computer that died on me. Sadly, most of them were corrupted but I had some luck retrieving some music files and some photos. As I was running through the photos, deleting the irrelevant, I dawned upon the cruel fact that I might have lost some really precious photos from the past, as it became more and more likely that they will not appear in this bundle.

And I found some photos of ah ma, taken with me during last year's CNY celebration.
I have always celebrated CNY with my grandma, and my many uncles and aunties, cousins, nephews and nieces. You can imagine how noisy and chaotic sometimes it could be. But that's what a large happy family felt like to me. And there's always the figurehead whom everyone respects and loves. My granny had always been the source of unity. Single-handedly, her very presence ensured that the many brothers and sisters gathered at least a few times each year, to celebrate either CNY, or her birthday, any other random events. We'd always meet at my granny's place, affectionately known as "Ah Ma Jia". Things would not be the same again.

I'm sorry Ah Ma. I didn't visit as much as I should and I wanted to. I took things for granted. I think I took life for granted. Work should've never been an excuse. There's always another time for work and I shouldn't have been a workaholic. I know I've always loved you but I never knew how much I miss you until you were gone. Nowadays, whenever I think of you, I couldn't seem to control my emotion and my tears. Perhaps, I've never really gotten over your leaving. Sometimes I wish, when I drop by Ah Ma Jia, things would still be the same. You'd be either watching tv, or dozing off on your armchair. I'd try conversing with you in my totally perfect hokkien and nonetheless, you'd laugh at anything I said, whether you understood me or not. It always felt so peaceful around you. Almost like I'm once again, the little boy you took care of when I was in primary school. You indulged me.

I miss you so much Ah Ma.

Happy Teacher's Day

2009-09-01T22:08:00.003+08:00

Probably the last time I'd be celebrating this day, in this setting and manner. Will I miss it? Definitely.
Nothing beats hearing simple words of appreciation from the ones who had terrorized you in the years before. And the ones who are currently doing so.

As I perform on thy stage, perhaps for the very last time, mixed feelings raged and several people appeared in my mind.

Mr Lee Kian Seng, my Economics teacher from VJC. You inspired me to walk the same path you took. I hope I've done enough in this short 3 years, to make you feel proud. Hope you are doing fine.

Mrs Magdalen Low, my mentor. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have settled in so quickly and assuredly. Without your guidance, I wouldn't have survived the first year(and the subsequent 2 hehe) in AJ as a JC2 tutor. I could have told you all this in person but I'm afraid I might actually cry so I'd put it here instead yea.

Mr Nelson Kwei. Thank you for giving me the opportunities and showing me what I can possibly be.

There were many more who had made an impact or two in my life and I extend my heartfelt gratitude to all who have contributed to my growth as a person.

Happy Teacher's Day.

Things I wish I...

2009-07-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

have more luxury of time to do...
Basically, lots of S(es) [cmon, speak it out loud!]

Sing.
Swim.
Slack.
Sleep.
Swing my muramasa/masamune.

Regrets? perhaps.

2009-07-01T23:21:00.009+08:00

Perhaps, I should have left it as it is and not spoke my mind.
Perhaps, I should have been less critical. Of them, and of myself.

Perhaps, I should have expected lesser and therefore, fret less, done less.
Perhaps, I shouldn't have pushed them so hard.
Perhaps, I should have been more demanding?
Perhaps, I shouldn't have allowed them to misplace what I've put in their hands.

Perhaps, I should teach myself to be hard of seeing, hearing and feeling.
Perhaps, I should learn to let go and move on.

Perhaps, the next one would be better. if they reflect and learn.
Perhaps, they won't because they don't care?

Perhaps, time's up.
Perhaps.

No regrets

2009-06-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

A Seal's lullaby won't put us to Sleep, no no..
In Lux Aurumque, the Fisherman Sings.

Within the hills and grassland..
A Maiden of Miao, dances for her love

So do we, pray, for a night of healing music,
Ave Maria. Ave Regina Coelorum.

For we were never the Hare,
And we would not cry Sour Grapes,
Even with the Mountain in Labour,

We believe that Persuasion is, better than Force.
And we be Saved by our Songs.

Give me a muramasa

2009-06-18T01:02:00.002+08:00

I've finally completed watching Kyo the Samurai Deeper. Yes yes yes I know it's pretty old and it has been around for a while and it kindda deviated much from the original plot in the manga but yea, I've wanted to watch it since..4 year ago? Finally found the time.

It set me of thinking, isn't it cool to be able to take away a part of you that you don't desire and let it exist as another person. Best thing is you could probably make it your life ambition to eliminate it.

Now that's only if you've a trusty muramasa by your side (and the skills to use it effectively).

I want a muramasa.
I want to live in an anime world. Maybe I can be doraemon. With a muramasa.

Cool.

Transitions

2009-06-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

© By Ashley E. Bailey

Nervous, Insecure,
Desperately trying to be like everyone else,
Not wanting to stick out,
Praying for the approval of my peers,
I began the next chapter of my life.

Thrown out into the dark,
Into a thickly settled forest,
With no choice,
I cleared the way,
Through these years,
Now I've found the light.

This journey wasn't easy,
Many times, I was lost,
Drowned by temptations and falsifications,
Veered of the path by mistakes and misfortunes,
Broken and bruised at times, but I survived.

I didn't take this walk alone,
There were many along the way,
Some walked beside me, Some followed,
Some guided,while others passed me by,
I take a piece of them all,
What I have learned,
And I am me.

Memories fill my path,
Some good, Some bad,
Cries of pain filled my dark,
Smiles and laughs emblazoned my light,
I loved some, lost some,
It all completes my story.

I walked into the forest frightened,
I walked out frightened but no longer afraid to admit it,
On that journey, In that dark,
I found myself, I found light,
I became a person I am proud to be,
I am ready now, Ready to turn the page,
Ready to begin a new chapter, Another journey.

Crossroads..?

2009-05-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

Been feeling rather emotional of late. Here I am, typing this with some emo mo mo song playing in the background so softly I don't even know what song it is.

I have taught for 3 full years now. I've grown attached to this job. This is probably my calling. But I'm not prepared to give up everything I've dreamed of becoming, for this. Am I selfish, I ask myself more frequently than the normal. I reckon everyone wants to do what he/she wants to and I'm rather blessed to be in a position where I can actually take charge of my life now and decide what I want to do.
But there's this niggling feeling somewhat, that I've let someone down, that I've kind of abandoned something, or somebody and I can't get rid of this feeling.

On another note, a short conversation I had with close friends I've not seen for a while, set me off thinking again, that often, it's hard to break away from things that're not in your control. Its unfair and it might not be worth your trouble, effort and sacrifices.

I feel weak, whenever I get this feeling of haplessness. I am a strong believer of my abilities and the amount of resilience, determination, fighting spirit and drive I naturally possess have served me well in thrusting me ahead in life.

But right now, I feel hapless.

Maybe i'm just being emo mo mo.

Maybe not.

Perturbed and Desolate

2009-05-21T22:31:00.005+08:00

"more than half of them have decided to pull out"

Dropped on me like a bombshell.
I do not understand.
How could you guys decide to hurt us like this.

You don't abandon your family.
I am appealing to your heart.
Don't disappoint your pals, your brothers and sisters.
Don't disappoint me.

Reflections, Introspection, Affirmation

2009-05-15T00:52:00.002+08:00

It has been a hectic, stressful and physically emotionally mentally draining month.
I've quite a bit to say but I'm tired.

SYF with ajchoir.
Economics symposium.

I'd bump it for the time being.
Be back later.

No Importa La Distancia

2009-05-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

Probably my last SYF with them.
No regrets.
Sing, Feel, Love.

To Sing With You Your Song

2009-04-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

I did not feel that impulse to blog as I would have in the past. Took me a while to put these thoughts together and finally decided to put them into words.
I did not feel the elation, ecstasy nor the rush of blood that I felt 2 years ago.
Maybe I was convinced to not expect much.

I felt relief.

I wouldn't know what to do honestly, should I fail this batch of singers.
Every batch deserves the best. I must only deliver the best for them.

Maybe the process could have been smoother. Maybe it should have gone according to what I've planned. Maybe it'd have been less stressful, exhausting and painful.

But this is life. Life is about change. And responding to changes. Nothing is constant.

To steer the ship along its course towards its next destination, you must respond to the changing condition of the seas. It could be peaceful and sunny sometimes, stormy and dangerous some other times. What does not change, is the ship and for its sake, we must never falter nor lose our way.

I'm looking forward to the next challenge and hopefully, we'd all be well rested and our internal compass, aligned towards our next common destination, our hearts as one.

Mano kaj man' kunpremitaj, trans la eterno sen lim'

16th April 2009

2009-04-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

I pray for, it will be,
A day of sincerity and focus,
A performance of musicianship and artistry,
A result befitting of their effort,
An experience, memorable and impactful.

A day of no regrets.
I pray.

What will be will be.

2009-04-12T13:10:00.001+08:00

It's make it or break it time.
No regrets.

will the real TT please stand up

2009-04-05T21:14:00.003+08:00

I've been weak for the past week.
That's not me.

Whatever it is, I still want them to get the very best so I'm gonna continue fighting.

Exhausted

2009-04-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

I felt defeated today.

What you love most pains you most

2009-04-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

There's so much more I can do. There's so much more I'm willing to do.
I don't mind risking a relapse. I don't mind being in pain.

Why make me feel that it's not worthwhile and meaningful anymore.

Has it all changed?
Can it not change?

I don't give up, I don't surrender.
Please. Don't make me.

Let's show Seoul/Korea the VC thang!

2009-01-20T01:12:00.009+08:00

I must have been taking too long a break from VC. I am only realizing how much I miss singing in VC. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. That's the kind of material we are made of. I mean it's not exactly great that we rise up to the challenge only when we are in some sort of a near crisis or as MuSeS would sing, time is running out, we always manage to band together as one fighting unit and give it our all.

I really didn't want to interrupt gabs during his combine during the last sat's prac. I respect this dude's devotion and blinded dedication to the cause, something I could relate to very much. Well, I see a lot of him in me, both goods and bads. At his age, I was equally blindly devoted to my responsibilities to accomplish and perfect everything I was tasked to do. Equally brash and maybe rash. Similarly blunt and straightforward I guess.

His talent is undoubted but time and more experiences with different choirs would definitely aid his growth as a musician. I wish him the best and I really hope to see him establish himself as his own one day.

It felt really good, seeing ppl like mingguo giving gabs a senior's assurance and giving him credit for his work. Sandy mommy going around making sure everyone follows her instructions in staying warm and healthy and FAT(several layers of clothes and winter jacket..argh..) for the trip.

I am kindda proud of this current batch of leaders, for the amount of effort and passion they have put into this. Not that it has anything to do with me but somewhat, being their grand grand senior and seeing them getting into the groove of running the choir and coping well with a major project like this makes me "beam" somewhat, whenever I mention VC and our current project.

I'm sure the young ones will soon grow in statue and I sincerely hope they'd stay on to preserve and further enhance VC's reputation as not only a top notch choir, but also a family of dedicated singers.

We heart VC.

Shower us with your blessings and well wishes, we'd do Singapura proud =)

Goodbye ah ma.

2008-12-31T23:17:00.003+08:00

i love you.
I'd miss you.

My heart is inditing......of good memories! Part II

2008-12-16T20:26:00.010+08:00

You know you are suffering from WYCF withdrawal symptoms if you share one of the following:

1. Waking up early only to remember that there's no need to rush off to CCAB/VCH for rehearsals and/or workshops.
2. Hearing random snippets of Bob's Aesop's Fables(especially the layering of "ahhs" in <> I must have really taken to that bit).
3. Exclaiming "Persuasion, is better than Force!" & "Music, can delay, death" (and YES with those dramatic pauses in between the phrase!) to random people for no better reasons than possible impending insanity.
4. Singing Ombra Mai Fu in the shower for the past few nights and YES once again earlier tonight.
5. Humming to Ombra Mai Fu subconsciously while driving, even with heavy rock or candy pop blasting away in the background
6. "Bubbling" to Ombra Mai Fu while warming up in the morning, while driving, again.
7. Muttering random German phrases/words from the Brahms and the Schubert subconsciously.
8. Breaking into the chorus of the theme song randomly..... "What song to be, child of destiny etc..."
9. And yes, walking to the beat of "Everlasting Melody" (get it out of my head, somebody help me!!!)

IT had been an awesome and fulfilling two weeks.

I believe the World Youth Choral Festival (WYCF) 2008, brainchild of the good people (and dear friends) of the CCAB MOE holds tremendous promise and potential to become one of, if not THE major choral event in Singapore.
In time to come and with constant improvement to this project, it will gain regional and international recognition as one of the festivals to look out for.

Kudos to the MOE officials for their hardwork and their belief in choral music.

My fondest of memories were from the pre-festival camp when I worked with the SATB festival chorus. An amazing bunch of choristers from various schools in Singapore. A pity, it didn't include singers from several other schools and colleges, I believe they have missed out on something that could be life-changing or at the very least, inspirational and highly educational.

Several personal "firsts" made their way into TT's record of experiences in conducting choirs. ( I would try to exclude names here but i'm sure we all love to mention issac, don't we? =)
Here goes:
1. Someone exclaiming "OMG" in the midst of warm up with me, for reasons i have no idea of!
2. Someone telling me (for the first time) that I was making them deaf with my banging on the clavi (sorry cass and co! haha I'd remember not to in future! )
3. (CLASSIC) Someone asking me the exact question to the question that I have faciliated in answering just a second before. "what is inditing?" (Special mention here for Michael of HCI who was cool and patient with his response to that question, cheers to you dude!)

And many more..

What struck me most was the enthusiasm and passion shown towards learning the music (and the german), no doubt extremely foreign to some of them and maybe to a another group, a less preferred genre of music but nonetheless, they've shown great attitude towards mastering the pieces.

As you might know, I'm more of a fan for the contemporary, complex and the folklore inspired. However, given the task to prepare this festival choir for the pieces chosen by Eugene had forced me to move out of my comfort zone and I must admit, the personal learning was tremendous, both in preparation for the rehearsals to the actual sessions. I had to revise my German too! Something I've not done for quite some time. I was once again reminded of the diversity of music and universal appreciation for the various different forms of music. I have always been open-minded and am also a moderate towards the different forms, genre and periods of music but maybe, I've forgotten that with the passing of time. I'm very thankful for the reminder.

In such a huge group of diversity and differences in character, aptitude and learning preferences, I believe the most open minded of all would have benefitted the most. Most importantly, meaningful friendships would have been forged. No matter the differences, there is one fundamental similarity in this bunch. A passion towards making music. That's really powerful and that's what allowed many of us, including myself to click with many that I had the opportunity to interact more with.

Yes, the final performances could have been more refined and all but they were definitely not lacking in spirit and energy. Forget the wrong notes or the little glitches here and there, to me it was a smashing concert that exemplified the deeper greater meaning to music making, in stark contrast to the competitive elements many have grown to become obsessed with.

Kari ssuggested that it is hard to be a musician if you are not melanchonic. I agree to that notion to a certain extent but personally, I feel that every true musician is an overflowing pot full of emotions. Thus, the need for us to express ourselves through musical expressions. The same goes for artists, authors and poets.

Being the emotional me, I felt the surge in emotions whilst standing on stage with everybody else, singing Child of Destiny in this setting for the very last time and I felt overwhelming mixed emotions. I was really happy for everyone, who would have come out of this a better person and/or musician but I had to suppress my tears honestly, for the curtains had finally come to a close.

These experiences have bolstered my resolve and helped cement my decision to do music full time.

Live the dream.

The end of a beginning marks the beginning of a new start.

I would be missing seeing you people around, singing, rehearsing, obsessively taking photographs whenever there was an opportunity to, being silly and lame haha and yea, I guess I would even miss being "persuaded" (is better than being forced) into everlasting melody at every opportunity.

Keep the fire of music making burning strong! (it delays death you see so it's good for your health yea!)
And keep in touch.
Let's hope to meet again, sometime somewhere along our journey in music making.

Even when the North wind stops blowing to the south
The Goose's eaten and the Swansong sung
Ah! Dolente partita.

Embrace music, for it is
Lebenslust

In retrospection, while
Ombra Mai Fu

You and I
We are, a Child of Destiny
Let there be
an Everlasting melody
of Hope and Love

TT
World Youth Choral Festival 2008

Turning point

2008-12-15T23:55:00.003+08:00

I want them to be appreciated for the music they make. That has always been the driving motivation behind the work I do with them.

It pains me, when they don't.

Let's get it working right for us again.

My heart is inditing......of good memories!

2008-12-05T18:36:00.004+08:00

Hello I'm back! Bookmarking this, as I've been motivated enough (by the various events and also a particular inquisitive boy haha) to put to words my personal experience and thoughts about the WYCF pre-camp held over the week.

To be continued!

Regrets

2008-06-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

Wake up pls. wake up. Let me make you laugh like before. We'd converse, me with my broken Hokkien and you amused and trying hard to understand me but nonetheless, we would converse. wake up. pls.

Guilt stricken.

2008-06-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

I've just visited my granny at the hospital.
I was overwhelmed with emotions and I could stop my tears from overflowing.

Work shld never have been an excuse.

I don't want to be overworked and losing precious time with my loved ones. I must free myself from this prison.

Olomouc 2008

2008-06-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

My first with my love.
To come.

Weight on thy shoulders

2008-06-02T22:27:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I felt so nervous about something. I guess when you take full responsibility upon yourself to create the best possible piece of memory for these important others, anxiety will be part and parcel of the starters' pack that included stress, stress and more stress.

I hope I won't induce any sense of uncertainty on them but I reckon they won't get to read this before boarding the flight anyways. So let me rant a little before I go.

Ok. Time to go. No regrets.

Adversity evokes the human spirit in us

2008-05-25T21:38:00.007+08:00

Call me a skeptic, but many either seek to and has already capitalized on this event.

But nonetheless, we must not doubt and hesitate to aid.

We'd never undergo the same physical,emotional and psychological torment the Sichuans are going through.

Donate, Pray, Do whatever you can.
Support the cause.

Quispiam Novus 2008: The Start of Something New

2008-04-06T15:43:00.009+08:00

Ok, here goes.

It all started with a dream. A dream that was inspired by a movie/musical, recommended by one of my brothers. This same dream also carries my aspirations for this choir. To experience the joy of music making. To be educated in the art of choral singing. To sing with passion. To develop lifeskills and good character through this thing we love to do.

I was selfish. Most of the song choices were my favourite songs. But I wanted them to sing my favourite songs. Because I think they deserve to sing my favourite songs. I want to share them, with them. Because they are all so important to me, choir and the music.

I knew preparation for the musical would be tough, especially with my obsession for perfection. But I only wanted the best for them, nothing less.

I didn't want it to be just any concert or musical, I wanted it to be one that'd be remembered. For life. Mine and theirs. And hopefully others, who became part of it, either as helpers, supporters or audience.

I was demanding. And we were short of time. It was my bad that I had to be away for a crucial part of it all but I had no choice. And they probably wouldn't know how much they dominated my thoughts throughout the entire period of absence.

In retrospection, I could have started preparation earlier, I could have done more before I went overseas, I could have done so much more, to ensure that they were better prepared.

But I am thankful. For the kind of kids I've in my company. Strong and resilient, dedicated and committed, hardworking and passionate. What could I have done, without them. What could I have done for them, without knowing I have a passionate team supporting me in this.

The results were rewarding. But the process was the one to remember. The last week of rehearsals was hell. But somehow, we made it. Despite all odds apparently.

And somehow, I was hit by a certain profound realization.

When I felt extremely vulnerable, from the jetlag, weakened immune system and all the nasty things invading my system, I found the strength to walk somehow.

When I lost my voice, and I felt hopeless, hapless and alone, I found an inner voice and somehow, the endurance to speak through the pain.

When I have finally exhausted all means to improve the situation, reached the end of the road, I found new hope. I took a chance and miraculously, my voice came back. To me, it was a sign that I must finish what I've originally sought out to do. I must give my kids something amazing to remember. An experience they'd never forget. A story they could always tell their friends, and children perhaps.

What have I realized?

The strength, endurance and the miracle happened because of the kids. Otherwise, I wouldn't have survived the pain I was biting my teeth through and the amount of stress that was mercilessly weighing down my shoulders.

I realized that I am indeed, a goon who readily throws himself into the burning cauldron without considering whether the heat might be too hot for me to handle. But I know, I do this because it is for people I'm responsible for, people I care for, people I love.

For that was the reason why I simply couldn't conceal and withhold my....emotions, as hard as I tried to, when the good man "exposed" this idiocy in me to the choir. It resonated strongly within me, stirring my deepest feelings and thoughts. This is a man, hard to come by, especially so as he not only shares my sentiment, conviction, dedication to the kids, and also my philosophy for music and education.

Anyways, I'm kindda proud of being this goon that I am haha. =)

Having said that though, I'm more proud of my kids. I beam like an idiot everytime someone congratulated me on the successful concert and I responded saying "Thanks, it was my kids credit yea, all done by them."

This is not just any concert to me.
It is my first full concert as a choral director.
It is very special, I don't know if anyone could comprehend how much it means to me, but I'm so glad so glad I did this with them.

This is the start of something new. Something real and meaningful. That's my hope for them.

My beloved Anglican High School choir, I know, when there was ME and YOU and in our bones, we knew we're all in this together, in our souls we will find the strength, fortitude and perseverance as we are breaking free from status quo for the start of something new is what WE've been looking for.

Quispiam Novus
----------------------14th April 2008-------------------------------

More to come. Collecting my thoughts and emotions.

I'm so proud of my kids.

That's why it took us so long to decide on the name of the concert. It is meant to remembered by many, and meant to last. I hope it will, with or without me.

I've learnt more than I've taught

2007-08-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

Somehow, blogger.com has restricted me from posting an entry on this blog since the Pattaya trip until today! I've forgotten much of what I wanted to say originally, but I reckon my thoughts,emotions and gratitude and a tinge of reluctance have already been communicated to the intended.

It had been a trying period. What the heck. It still IS, with preparations for prelims and the eventual A levels picking up the tempo.

Back to Pattaya. I didn't get to eat my papayas. But I learnt of hulahoops. And the amazingly high level of resilience I possess, considering the number of LS episodes I had to undergo.

But I've learnt much. And music making has become meaningful again.

I believe I gave the kids (and the bunch of adults from the varsity choir - they're really monkeys in disguise haha) all that I could offer.

I didn't expect to get anything back in return. But I have gotten back so much more.
I was once again inspired to do music. I was given love.
Gonna miss this bunch of kids.

My best hopes and wishes for them, in choir and college and most importantly, in life thereafter. I am sure this experience has made them stronger individuals. I sincerely hope this put them in good stead for life's many challenges ahead as they would face in time to come.
Showed Pattaya the AJ thang. They showed me what life can be.

Not forgetting the adults, I never knew I could emote that strongly, for any song other than "No Man is an Island", my choir anthem. Thank you for showing me that something that emotionally charged could be achieved. I have to say, we made mistakes and it was a competition after all. But we made meaningful music. Music, the way it should have been. It moved people. That's what matters.

Singapore's birthday is just round the corner. With each year that has passed, I feel stronger and deeper for this place I call Home. Why? I can't seem to single out any particular reason but all I can say is this.
I would willingly die defending this country, even if I knew resistance would be futile and death carries a high probability. 'nuff said.

For all of the above, that gives me meaning and passion in life.

Danke.
Gracias.
Merci.

I bleed red and white, and yellow, and now, blue too.

Let's PLAY!

2007-06-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

PLAY! a Video Game Symphony

I reckon the last of the 3 shows put up by the Singapore Festival Orchestra and the Chorus was probably the best. And what more to hope for, as an apt conclusion to the entire PLAY! experience.

Being the avid but now severly deprived gamer, singing as a member of the chorus could be the next best thing for me to do, during this much shortened mid-year holidays. However, there are several more layers of meaningfulness to my participation in this concert.

It has been interesting, singing in the festival choir alongside current students AND ex-students of mine alike. It has always been them singing in choirs I conduct. A refreshing opportunity to put myself in their shoes, on the same boat doing the same thing. This would be memorable.

It has also been quite sometime since I last shared the stage with some of my buddies, as chorister of a choir. Old friends from the good old nuschoir days. New friends from the new era of nuschoir. Most notably, my brothers from good old VS/VJ choir years.

I am glad I decided to participate in this concert in the end, against the seemingly extravagent desires for a good break from the emotionally draining work I do; and the burden of responsibilities I have consciously, sub-consciously or unknowingly come to shouldering over the years.

Wonder when the next time an event as meaningful and memorable as this will present itself.

Until then, allow me to indulge in this moment(with FFVI's Dancing Mad on repeat in the background, I am really digging this particular arrangement!) before it all eventually resides as pleasant memories, destined for the shelves of yesterdays.

Victoria Chorale presents In Song 2007

2007-06-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

A first for me and them alike...

2007-04-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

We share the same new beginning.

I teared. Tears of joy and relief.

I would not forgive myself if they have had to settle for anything lesser than what they deserve.

I am thankful and quite speechless.

A meaningful day

2007-03-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

16/06 were in their full school uniform today, all neatly worn with the school tie and collar pin on. Heard from giddy that all were punctual for school as well.
Why am I blogging about this? Because I am really proud of them.

Now, I also feel extremely proud of the choir today, in particular the choir's student conductor. It was passion, dedication, power of friendship and peer support, most outstandingly resilience in display.

A simple post that has more meaning than many others.

Today, the kids earned my admiration.

Settled Unsettled

2007-03-24T14:17:00.000+08:00

I reckon I have settled in quickly and comfortably. This profession is indeed very different from what I have envisaged it to be but what the heck, we are still doing good to people around us, in a way or another. As much as I would like to be spending more time doing what I think I should be doing in my current capacity, I reckon the bigger authorities or even the society see us as multitaskers rather than specialists.

I know I am more than capable of fulfiling the requirements of this job and although the learning curve was rather steep and the workload heavy, I know I will still be standing strong at the end of the day.

But the more rooted I think I have become, the more unsettled I feel. Dissonance builds up and sometimes frustrations. All that I can do now, is to channel them into useful energy(hopefully) and see through the terms.

As prisoned birds must find their freedom, I bide my time.

On another totally irrelevant point, I think I love the saturday choir.

The thing about ranking, awards and competition in Singapore

2007-03-01T10:21:00.000+08:00

This sparked off a lamenting session with an old friend from the chorale..

We were talking about the SYF choral competition that's just round the corner and were practically lamenting the need for the choir kids to go through all these, when the choir could be better off focusing on doing music for the sake of doing music. We believe the process of making music w/o the "motivations" of a competition and/or inevitably ranking, will be much more enjoyable and meaningful.

I have a reason for this which I believe, might not be Uniquely Singapore, but close. Real close.

See, meritocracy is one of the fundamentals of Singapore's ideologies and political thrusts as a nation. Frankly, there's nothing wrong with meritocracy. In fact I am a firm believer in the positives it creates. However, in this country I proudly call home, despite all her material riches and achievements, she has yet lose her tag of a "developing country" in the realm of the art, culture and appreciation. I reckon this apply especially so to choral music.

Thus, the need for structured assessment "exercises" like the SYF, or the more glamorous overseas competitions and what not. Because this is the only way Singaporeans, not just the authorities but really the general public could decide whether a choir is mediocre, good or excellent. Sadly, this could possibly be the only method of assessment most Singaporeans know of. Partly due to the lack of exposure to this artform, or the lack of interest in it, people are unable to decide for themselves likewise whether a particular choral performance was a good one or a bad one. They NEED to see the rankings, the number of awards won etc indicators of how well or badly a choir has performed at the SYF or at an overseas competitions to determine whether a public concert staged by a choir would be worth their time.

The following is kindda random but what the heck.

A banker gets rewarded with fat bonuses, pay checks and possibly a percentage of profits he/she earns for the company. That's all fair and square.

Now, let's look at a teacher who has played a crucial and deciding role in the development of a particular student, who went on to become a successful entrepreneur whose multi-million business contributes to the economy of Singapore. Now even if the student credits the teacher entirely for his/her present day achievements, the teacher will probably never stand to receive any monetary rewards from the authorities yea?

Impossible. Because the teacher's impact on the student is unmeasurable. Unless there is a SYF/competition equivalent for teachers, to judge and then to rank them. Maybe give them a gold, silver, bronze or certificate of participation according to "measurables" such as the number of A students they've produced.

How could we then, measure, judge or assess the art of music making?

What is a song without words?

2007-02-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

I know music, on its own, speaks a thousand words. But the fusion of notes and words makes it all magical isn't it.

I have been working with a few songs recently, english, german, italian, latin they came in. And I realised much satisfaction was derived out of the processes of firstly translating the foreign languages into your native one, therein infering what the little packets of translated words, not necessarily meaningful as an entity on its own, are trying to express. Finally, marrying the words with the music, making sense of the structure of the music, why some of the words were fitted in one way or another etc.. Those were intense and really intimate moments I had with myself. And what I gained from that, I share it with the people I make music with.

Life is great and wonderful when you've the passion for something.
Life has limitless possibilities.
Life is like a candle, burning. The candle will eventually burn out, the wick might fail. Thus, burn brightly always and lend your light to the ones around you.

Retribution

2006-12-17T15:09:00.000+08:00

Serves me right for developing a habit of giving my students nicknames. Don't be mistaken though. It's more harmless affection than anything offensive, degrading or insulting. I'm sure they love their nicknames.
The most recent one being a certain Vanessala Gautam Vindisay.

Now I've a group of supposedly intellectual and mature young adults calling me duckhead.

duckhead?

duck head....

no link seriously..

At least uncle toby or mis-tle-toe showed more creative effort..

Hibernation

2006-09-23T18:34:00.000+08:00

Work has started. No time to blog for the time being =)

Kasar Mie La Gaji.....

2006-09-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

but i'm not! In fact I am raring to do more! (in case you're wondering, the title translates into "the earth is tired")

Putting a piece of music together! Coaxing my charges in translating musical notations into sounds and voices. Guiding them in making sense of the music. Engaging them in performing the art of transmitting meaningful messages, ideas or feelings through the unification of their voices. Working with my choir that is what I'm all geared and fired up for more.

Not the kind of mundance, run-of-the-mill sort of work my previous post lamented about.

I am feeling more and more at home with this choir. Increased involvement with the running of the choir and more interaction with the kids have made me even more determined to give them the best I could offer.

Cheers!

Routine kills...

2006-09-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

..the joy of waking up to a brand new day.

I was telling a friend the other day, that I am a person who needs things to be happening around me. More accurately, I am someone who needs to have events plotted on my schedule. A series of events. Events meaningful to me.

I am therefore very much a goal-oriented person. Someone who hates routine. I need to see what is ahead of me. Othewise, life becomes meaningless. Waking up everyday becomes a chore and the things I do turn increasingly mundane.

Jaded.

I don't like this feeling.
Normal service has to resume, soon.

You, are the way you drive

2006-08-23T14:02:00.000+08:00

Have you ever paid special attention to the way different people manoeuvre on the road and wonder beyond their mere desire to get from one place(or point) to another?

Do you faithfully and obediently drive a safe distance behind the person in front of you on the highway?

Do you usually travel on the left most lane, middle lane or the express lane?

Do you zip in between lanes simply to overtake the car in front of yours?

Do you peek at your fuel meter every now and then to ensure that you don't run out of fuel halfway to your destination?

Do you top up fuel only when it is running out or whenever you deem convenient to do so?

Do you tailgate and flash your high beam furiously at the fellow driving in front of you to get him to give way? OR

Do you overtake him at the first possible instance and swiftly return to the lane you were originally travelling on, just to prove a point?

Do you give way to drivers trying to manoeuvre into your lane, whether they signal or not?

This list is non exhaustive.

My point here is , the way you drive can offer an insight to the way you behave in life in general or your attitude towards life itself.

My philosophy here is , the journey on the road can be likened to an individual's journey in life.

The go getters simply refuse to tag behind their slow moving counterparts, or ppl who hinder their progress, in our analogy, the destination they are travelling to. In life, you "overtake" others who are progressing slower than you. Or you "horn/flash your high beam" at those who are preventing you from progressing and you have no other ways to "overtake" them other than "signalling" albeit not very politely to them, hoping that they get the message and "give way" to allow you to move on.

Others are contented to move along at the same pace as others. It doesn't matter to them whether they reach the destination 10mins or 1hr later than others. "I'd reach there eventually, why should I take a risk?" might be on their minds.

While the risk takers, which could probably be a majority seek to take "another route", or take the risk to "change lane" in order to reach their destination or attain their goal faster.

Take a moment to observe your driving style and see if it reflects the mentality you adopt towards life.

At the end of the day, we're all caught up in this rat race, quintessential of our competitive society. To quote a line dropped by this stress management consultant who conducted a particular workshop I attended some time ago,

"Singaporeans are really Russians in Asian skincoats"

which I found rather corny and somewhat risible but nonetheless thought provoking if you look beyond the humour and reflect on its implications.

Victoria Chorale Aloof? Proud? Cmon, are you serious?

2006-08-18T13:08:00.000+08:00

This is fairly disturbing. I mean no problems if Victoria Chorale REALLY is aloof and proud and what not. And on what grounds? For being one of Singapore's longest standing choral society? For being the alumnus of VJ/VS choir? For recently being crowned Category Champions at the World Choir Games in Xiamen?

The truth is we are not! And it really irritates the hell out of me when you have sneaky little goblins(I wanted to say sneaky little bastards but this is a public blog I should not advocate the use of foul language, hmm did i just say sneaky little bastards) with no honour (yea goblins coz they probably have GREEN eyes, you know what i'm saying!) going around sprouting all sort of nonsence about us AND ignorant members of the public or audience who don't know you personally going around commenting that we ARE aloof and proud simply because we kindda APPEARED aloof and proud on stage.

Cmon! Making a judgement call, moreover an irresponsible and groundless one on not ONE person but a GROUP of people simply because you(or the group of non-thinking childish immature company you were in) perceive us exuuuuuuberating an air of suuuuperiority on stage as ALOOFNESS???? Well done mate.

What made things worse is my realization from various sources that people making such comments are involved in this choral scene, whether they're faithful or casual patrons of choral music OR choristers themselves singing in choirs that have or have not interacted with the chorale.

If any VC member did anything that was offensive, rude or suggested aloofness, come take it up with us! We'd definitely investigate and provide you with a comprehensive explanation or an apology if we have REALLY TRULY stepped on your toes. www.vc.org.sg is where you can contact us via the contact details listed on the website so get down to doing it if you think your comments were fair and justifiable.

Just don't go around defaming us and maligning us of an attitude we do not embrace and will not even tolerate among ourselves.

Please! what the!

Where I'm headin'

2006-08-15T10:53:00.000+08:00

Over the course of the past few weeks, I've "interviewed" several friends involved in the choral scene on what they see themselves doing in this path in the long run. I've asked them what their motivations are, what their short/long term and ultimate goals are etc.

The one who I respected a lot said he is doing it because he wants to inculcate values through interaction with the kids. A tall order, but admirable nonetheless.

I am reminded of this other one who does it for self satisfaction and expression. Fair enough. Essentally self gratification in the form of what? Making good music? Or guiding the chorister towards meaningful music making? Stark difference btw the two I must say.

This little one says she has no long term plans and seek to improve herself in the short run before making any definitive long term plans. Mature I would say.

I am kindda worried with this other one. He seems to have lost that child-like, pure and sincere passion towards music making. I hope I am wrong.

What about me?

I am constantly seeking to improve myself. I am never satisfied with what I can do. Rather, I am always concerned and critical of my limitations. To me, successes in competitions are merely a stepping stone for any choir. Competitions are stages for choirs to showcase their abilities and establishing their reputations. It is a platform from which a choir reaches out to the masses. Globally. Through the music she makes. I always believe that this artform is most expressive amongst others. Are there any instrument as natural and unique as the human voice? Can any device articulate words, phrases or any other literature more meaningfully than the human voice? My answer is no.

Thus, the ultimate goal I've set for myself in my music career(if I do end up pursuing one) is to transmit messages for the better good, to touch the hearts and to communicate the sincerity of music making in its purest form possible through the voices of my choirs.

I believe I've matured over the years. For a very brief period of time in my conducting career, I basked in the fame and limelight the role of a conductor readily ensures. I awakened from that delusion very promptly, only to find myself cheapened and disgusted with what I became albeit only for a short while. I thank my parents' for the upbringing and various other life experiences that made me a down to earth and non-assuming person.

My point is, it is easy for one to be entrapped in this evil called self-glorification, especially in an illustrious occupation like that of a conductor. Thus, it is important for me that anyone, especially one who is responsible for the musical experience of the people he/she works with, serves with a pure and sincere intent. Doing anything for the sake of self-glorification cheapens its meaningfulness and undermines its true value.

Relationship (the romantic lovey dovey kind..)

2006-08-10T13:24:00.000+08:00

Alrite despite garnering only 4 responses to my previous post, I shall reopen this blog! My 4 ardent fans shall witness history in the making! bwahahahahah! (can't believe i just said that..childish...duh)

ok now moving on to something more serious, I want to blog about the above mentioned:
All of what follows are purely my personal opinion and take on the subject. It may or may not resonate with your views or your personal experience. Feel free to respond!

Having been engaged in a grand total of 2 serious relationships to date (yea yea some of you guys might be raising an eyebrow or two now..but yea i'm being totally honest here..), I believe I'm a guru in analyzing this thing call "a relationship". But I'm not gonna write a paper on that today. Instead, I'd write, from a retrospective/reflective point of view.

A relationship to me is about commitment, dedication and most fundamentally, love.
I know there're many theories about what love really is, altruistic in its purest form but most often if not ONLY found in its lesser variations.

Despite being commonly portrayed as a player or a person who fools around (or shows the natural tendency to), I am conversely a person who is staunchly devoted to the person I fall in love with. And there could only be one at any one time.

The thing about me is, I go into a r/s willing to sacrifice almost anything I possibly could. When I fall in love I fall deep. Like what my buddies always say, I fall "head over heels over head over heels over head.." you get the idea.

The more I compromise on my personal lifestyle for the person I am going into a relationship with, the deeper my commitment towards this person burrows. To the extent of which I wonder if I've lost myself, sometimes.

Now if you're mistaken, the love remains steadfast, it only gets stronger and deeper. However, the sense of "self" weakens.

Upon reaching this "phase", I'd start to ask myself questions like:

Why should I compromise further?
Why should the other person compromise?
Does the other person love me as much as I do?
etc etc etc

Are these signs of insecurity I ask myself. Nope is usually the answer. And I continue to ponder for the answer.

Just a couple of days ago while showering, something hit me (not literally getting hit by something something if you are booboo and doesn't understand the use of metaphors..).

I am feeling insecure about myself or rather what I have become or what I am going to be.
By compromising on things I feel strongly for, things I am passionate about, things I enjoy doing in the name of galvanizing the relationship (to me, galvanizing a r/s = keeping my partner happy), I have lost a part of me that has defined who I am or at least who I used to be. Do I resent this change? I don't know. Am I accepting this transition if it is inevitable? I don't know.

I reckon I want to be both Terrence the man he was and Terrence the boyfriend/husband/partner/daddy. Would this ever be possible? If so, how can I attain this seemingly impossible balance between the 2 identities?

Alrite! I want to hear your comments and I want to read about your personal take on the same issue!

Thus I am TAGGING the following people:

1. everyone who has posted a comment to my previous entry heh heh.
2. everyone and anyone who reads my blog! (don't be a voyeur leave your blog addy here as a comment!)

Should I? Let's hear it from the audience..

2006-08-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

Start blogging again? heh let's see how many non-spam responses I get from this...hahaha

edit: k let's give this a deadline...say..infinity!

Starting to see the fruits of labour?

2006-01-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

AHS has improved tremendously since the trip..I was pleasantly surprised to hear them sound so different from before , which also set me off wondering whether I played any part in this steep rise in standard or that they had it in them all these while, just not fulfiling the potential.

Nonetheless, I hold great hopes for them and I would continue to guide them to my best ability.

Keep it up!

To the TKSS kids

2006-01-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

The feelings were strong enough to overcome the inertia against the hassle of logging in and putting my thoughts and emotions into words.

I have discovered that, over the years, I have grown less susceptible to outbursts of emotions. I have mellowed and in a way, less likely to allow my feelings shown outwardly, as compared to say the times when I was still a JC boy heh.

I reckon I feel emough for them to blog about them.

The KL competition trip was the onset of everything. I was reminded how much I missed working with these kids and how much I feel for the choir.

The concert was prepared in a rush and I rue the fact that this could be the last time I would be working with this year's graduating batch. I guess that was the sole impetus to the crafting of this post.

If they ever get to read this, I want them to know that I would miss them greatly and I would remember all the time I've spent with them. I wish them the very best in their life ahead and I hope some time down the road we'd all meet again and reminisce the good and bad times we've had.

Especially to Ruhui, Emily, Faith, Yingcong,Shuning and Wayne, tough job running this choir, I think you guys had done more than expected of you. AT least in my eyes, you guys did great. =)

Spuriously Pseudo Reading Week : 12 Sep 05 - 16 Sep 05

2005-09-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

Yayeee...one week break! yea rite.

One mega essay due on friday.
2 make-up tutorials on tues and friday.
On top of that, plenty of assignments and projects due next week.

so exciting...

Fun week ahead Yay!!!

2005-09-01T17:32:00.000+08:00

I have one econs project, one education psychology PBL project/presentation and a high weightage test for E Lang ALL due next week.

wah hah hah hah hah hah hah i'm so excited..

Victoria Chorale's In Song 2005

2005-08-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

I dunno what to say really...
Emotionally drained.
Would be missing the people leaving the VC. All the best to them..hope that settle down well and fast..

First term of service in VC as her AC...mixed feelings...

Always wonderful to conduct a choir as fine as VC..dunno if i have the calibre to ensure that VC continues to benefit from my involvement as AC..would think deep into that soon..

Friends, dear friends and fellow comrades in making music are the very basis of my continued allegiance towards VC.. i'm blessed to be in such good company...this is something that i treasure much..and hold close to my heart..

Thank you all =)

Post - In Song 2005

2005-08-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

Drained. Exhausted. Will blog about it later. Just felt like putting this down now. Good night...

rather hapless...

2005-08-22T16:18:00.000+08:00

i cAn liken this VEry feeling to that of a baby being taken away from her Mother..Albeit Rather unwIllingly willingly....whAt to do..

I am buried

2005-08-22T11:59:00.000+08:00

under a pile of work! ARGH!

Anyway, gentle reminder to all >>>>

PLEASE CLICK THE TAG ON THE TOP LEFT HAND CORNER OF THIS PAGE! THANK YOU!!!!!!

Happy 21st!

2005-08-14T22:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIAT!

Feel real bad for missing out on his bday party....sigh....have to get back home to prepare for a presentation due tmr morning..

Somehow, my social life is no longer in existence..sigh..

NIE week 2

2005-08-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

Assignments! Deadlines! Projectwork!

sounds familiar?

now that i'm actually being serious, for the first time with my studies, out of free will...

this is getting stressful..

40 years of independence and counting!

2005-08-09T17:01:00.000+08:00

We the citizens of Singapore
Pledge ourselves as one united people
Regardless of race, language or religion
To build a democratic society
Based on justice and equality
So as to achieve happiness, prosperity
And progress for our Nation!

We are Singapore!

I am proud to be a Singaporean!

I dun wanna fall sick!!!!

2005-08-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Have been fighting the bug since last weeks..gotta keep on fighting..i can't fall sick...need to go to school..need to study....need to go for VC prac..must fight...must survive...

really?

2005-08-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

Was talking to a pal of mine and she said something that set me off thinking..

(reproduced - not in exact words)

with regards to my attitude towards something,

I said: "I'm easy."

She said: "You're NOT easy. Because of what they are, you expect nothing but the best from them. And when they don't reciprocate, you can't be easy even though you want to."

Hmmmmm..

NIE first week!

2005-08-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

Busy week and busy weeks ahead! This course exceeded my expectations and is turning out to be pretty demanding! I am still in the mood of doing my best for this course..so we'll see how long this last eh?!? haha!

Befriended a bunch of really nice people and I'm really glad that these are people who would be involved in moulding the future of Singapore!

Ok will blog in depth when I can find more time.. Things are going to get really tight with the assignemnts coming in..and of course..VC.

And what's this! Retribution I say!

2005-08-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

Guess what? Determined to do my part as a conscientious student FOR THE FIRST TIME (and probably the last in a local institution of learning), I was up to date with all the announcements, printed and READ the course outlines, took note of what textbooks to purchase , readings..watever!

And there I was this morning in school, queuing up FOR THE FIRST TIME to buy a set of readings that I need to prepare for tmr's tutorial. My turn came and guess wat! Out of stocks.

Loser.

Oh and I didn't stop there! Usually I would have gone "AH wat the heck! dun have dun have lor! " But this time round I'm so determined, I sent an email to my tutor, asking for help. She was really kind and offered to zap copies of the readings for me/others. Problem is, her office is in campus, and I sent the email from home.

Loser.

I'm so Glad!

2005-07-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

Well, enough of the negative vibes from whatever! I just wanna say GOOD JOB BRO! I'm glad to see the old you back in action. I believe that as bearers of expectations and responsibilities, it is often difficult to find pleasure in the things we do. Especically so when there are so many levels of limitations and restrictions that are associated with managing this choir we are both strongly committed to. But this is the challenge and don't ever forget that we are driven by our passion for music and our calling to inspire others into making music.

Keep it up!

Exhausted...

2005-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so tired every saturday night ..

Honestly, we're not ready. And I'm sure I ain't the only one who is flustered and worried with the current showing of the choir and how it would translate into the actual performance on concert day.

Can we build on what we've achieved tonight? I really hope so..I am getting quite sick and tired of myself for having to push the choir repeatedly. I'm sure they all hate me by now. Sigh. I can now fully empathise with zhihong's role as VC's AC. Bittersweet that is.

I really want the concert to be a blast. Not for self glorification but simply for the fact that I'm a member of VC, I'm darn proud of being in it and that its reputation is now at stake, if we screw the concert up.

Here we go again..

Orientation....I thot i'm done with it already..

2005-07-26T10:37:00.000+08:00

Team-bonding activities scheduled for the second half of today.....i guess my tone said it all..

Went for the SYF 05 Choral Presentation yesterday. I am really impressed with HCI's showing. Good vocal technique and a great choice of songs. Overall, I had an enjoyable evening.

Really looking forward to getting VC into shape for our own concert..

Good Progress!

2005-07-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

I believe VC is finally picking up speed in its final sprint towards its concert preparation. I was really quite worried 2 weeks back...But judging from what we had today, even though most of the guys were not around, we would be ready to deliver on concert day.

I wish I could continue to conjure up the energy to do what I do for the choir every saturday..May I not grow old or tired of this!

In Song 2005

2005-05-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

wahahaha since i'm on a roll, I shall follow up with my third post!

In Song 2005
Victoria Chorale
Singapore
When: 28 Aug 2005 (Sun), 7.30 PM at the Concert Hall

"The choir added life with their strong voices, warm enthusiasm and natural musicality." – The Business Times

Fresh from award-winning performances in the Choir Olympics 2004 held in Bremen, Germany, and a recent collaboration with the Singapore Chinese Orchestra in Thunderstorm as part of Huayi - Chinese Festival of Arts, Victoria Chorale is back with their much-anticipated annual concert.

Borne out of the choir's drive to discover unexplored territories in the choral realm, In Song 2005 features a repertoire consisting purely of Asian premieres. The audience will hear, for the first time, pieces composed by Indonesia's Budi Susanto Yohanes, Vytautas Miskinis from Russia and New Zealander David Hamilton, who is famed for his uplifting spirituals.

In line with this inspired vision, three up-and-coming conductors will take up the baton alongside resident Music Director Nelson Kwei, for the first time in Victoria Chorale's history. Let Victoria Chorale take you on a journey where music knows no bounds.

(105mins with intermission)

Brought to you by Victoria Chorale Tickets from Esplanade Box Office and SISTIC's authorised agents.

SISTIC hotline: 6348 5555Group bookings of 20 or more: 6828 8389 A SISTIC booking fee applies for all tickets.

KING OF EUROPE!

2005-05-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

AGAIN!

Liverpool FC won in the Champion's League final against AC Milan in a pulsating match that churned up 3 goals a side and an ultimate 3-2 penalty shoot out in favour of the Reds.

Despite a disappointing first half performance, the lads from the much-loved football club mustered a courageous recovery with goals from captain Gerrard, Smicer and Xabi Alonso.

Dudek was magnificient in goal.

Carragher was a rock in defence along with Hyypia and Traore.

Didi Hamann proved a reassuring prescence in the centre of midfield with his introduction following Harry Kewell's substitution for a thigh injury, may i say, a major major blessing in disguise.

Let's hope that this is enough for the authorities to be convinced that we should be allowed to defend the title.

There could have been no better entertainment than this.

Anticipate...

2005-05-02T08:58:00.000+08:00

as it rises from the ashes..its rebirth, revival, return...